Looking Inward

We've had some things happen lately that have forced us to look inward. There are things in our life right now that aren't ideal, and things that we cannot change no matter how we might wish we could. As a result, I've been looking at the things we can, and remembering what is very definitely going our way.

We sat down with our boys tonight for a very inpromptu game of Cadoo, and I realized while we played that it was Monday. I'd even made cookies after dinner, an activity both boys had been excited to help me with. We'd had a Family Home Evening without even trying, and it was very good for all of us.

There was a time when we were good about doing FHE. But then deployments and bad attitudes got in the way, and we just gave up on it. Now that life is more normal, and the one thing we have in abundance is family time, we are talking about starting it up again.

It's amazing how you can spend so much time together, yet not connect nearly enough in that time. I thought that since we put so much effort into doing church on Sundays together, we didn't have to worry too much about FHE. I am realizing that it isn't working. We need something else, even if all we do is play a game or go to the beach.

Life can so often turn into a game of just getting by. The important things get missed in the slipstream of wants and needs and electronic noise. It's too easy to forget or push aside the people and things that should take center stage to everything else. I think I've been doing too much of that lately, and it needs to stop.

Moving here has been so challenging in so many ways, but I appreciate it more than I could ever express. I can already feel myself changing, stretching and growing in ways I know I wouldn't have without it. I love change mainly because it always fills my soul with a desire to be someone I never thought I could be. I always end up better, even if the growing pains make me wonder why I ever asked to be there in the first place.

It's all worth it in the end. Absolutely!